Sunday a miracle happened. We went out to lunch and I only ate half. I ordered a hamburger and steak fries. I have been cutting things like this in half, hoping the visualization would teach me to actually eat half. For the first time, it worked. I DID eat all the fries but no matter how you look at it, this is progress. I would have eaten all the fries anyway.
I have been doing pretty well on this new program. The web-site http://myfitnesspal.com has been a huge help. It is free! What it does is help me track what I am eating. I do believe that this is a key part of any weight loss program. I hate doing it but this site makes is as painless as possible. It is the accountability part of my program and I am sure the reason I hate doing it is because I don’t want to be accountable. It is so easy to lie to myself and determine that I only ate six wings, when I have NEVER eaten only six wings in my life. I am sure that steak I just ate is six ounces. I ordered a twelve ounce but it looks awfully small. AND doesn’t it lose weight when it is cooked? I really have to work at being honest with myself and record exactly what I eat immediately. It is too easy for me to “forget” the blue cheese dressing or pat of butter.
The web-site keeps track of calories, carbohydrates, fat and protein. My main focus has been on calories and fat. At the end of the day, if I am under in those two columns I am thrilled. I am constantly amazed at how out of control I really was. Everything I choose is high in fat. Everything. I am conscious of this now and doing better with my choices, which made Sunday so great. I had a high fat meal but I only ate half. This is a huge step in the right direction.
I still eat all the foods I like but since I am learning which ones are lousy choices, I am having them less often. I still have pizza, wings, burger and fries (not all at the same time). I have one or two pieces of pizza and stop. I have ten wings. And now, half of a designer burger! I work hard to stay away from fast food; there is no hope for me there yet.
Something else I’ve noticed is that I always choose big dishes. I’ve started using the smaller bowls when I eat cereal or fruit. I do think that it looks like there is more there, rather than looking into a half empty bowl. Restaurants use this practice all the time to make the meal look larger. Why did it take me so long to catch on? Because I filled the bowl, it didn’t look empty at all!
I am learning to enjoy fresh fruits. I even ate a mango, not my favorite but I ate it anyway. Who knew I would love kiwi? I very much enjoy grilled green peppers and onions. If that is what I have to do to eat a vegetable, so be it. I am also starting to eat more chicken and fish. Eating low fat fish is not easy but I am getting used to it. I don’t think it will ever be a “go to” selection but I am not opposed to it either.
After dinner, if my calorie or fat count is higher than it should be, I exercise again. I have to pay the piper. If I am dog tired, the last thing I want to do is get on that stupid elliptical machine. It is a choice I have to make with each meal. I get extra in each category when I log my exercise which helps if I do over indulge, but my goal is to not need extra.
I have lost 9 pounds in 8 weeks which isn’t too shabby for someone who struggles to stay on track. I decided to donate one pound of food for each pound I lose to a local food bank. I put a laundry basket in the corner of the living room for the food. When I lift the basket and can understand what nine pounds I lost feels like it is a huge motivator. I don’t want that back on my body.
I am trying everything and anything to keep myself motivated. I don’t know what the difference is this time versus every other time I have tried to diet. I only know that for today it is working and I am making progress. I am grateful for that.